Mom has a new phone number as of last night. This is how she told me she was back in the hospital again. Ugh! I was sorry to hear when I talked with Mom tonight that she was back in the hospital and had such a rough day.
Yesterday, while in the Infusion Ward, Mom started to spike a fever while receiving platelets. While her temperature continued to climb, she began to throw up blood. Not a good sign. This was an automatic trip back to her beloved Ground F Ward at Stanford Hospital! Although they have not pinpointed where the infection that is causing these new symptoms is located, the doctor began antibiotics immediately.
Mom was very transparent tonight on how her day had gone thus far. I appreciate Mom sharing with me how things really are with her. Mom said that today was one of the roughest days that she has had since she first was diagnosed with Aplastic Anemia. This is from a woman who has survived three rounds of IV chemotherapy so it must have been a bad day! Mom said that she didn't eat dinner last night and wasn't allowed to eat this morning because of the tests that need to be run on an empty stomach. Unfortunately, the tests were not able to be run as planned first thing in the morning and were finally done in the afternoon. After spending 1.5 hours in an MRI tube among other tests, Mom found herself "undone". By the time her first bag of red blood cells had been given to her, she had "had it". She found herself an emotional wreck, complete with lots of tears. She even had a headache and Mom rarely suffers from a headache. Mom told the nurse bringing in the second bag of blood that it would just have to wait...she couldn't take anymore at that time. Dad arrived back in time with cheese and soup to "save" his depressed, starving wife and encourage her to stay the course. By the time I talked with Mom, she was pleased that she could talk without crying and was working on becoming her optimistic self again. Food and encouragement are good things! Mom was still due for another test tonight to check out the condition of the fungus in her lungs and liver, so Mom's day wasn't over yet. Mom had no results from any of her tests but hopes to have more information when the doctors make their morning rounds.
Mom said this was the first time in all her illness that she questioned if everything was worth the fight. She is grieved by what she perceives she is put her family through. I told her that she is worth the effort and we all love her dearly. No need to worry about the rest of us!
Mom had a rough day but told me that she knows that tomorrow will be better. How I love the "Pollyanna" in my precious mother! If you would like to call and encourage Mom, you can reach her at 650-498-3061. She is blessed to be in room 21 on Ground F Ward. Thank you for remembering Mom in your thoughts and prayers. You are a blessing to us all.
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